September 6, 2015

Hey Sweet Baby Boy!

You didn't send me your address, so I didn't mail a letter.  In fact, I didn't write one either, so it was sort of a blessing.  I am feeling like a loser mom.  I didn't get you anything for hump day, I don't write like I am supposed to.  I think I have just been feeling a little overwhelmed! 

School started with a BANG!  I don't think my clinical instructor really likes me! Our first day at the hospital, we went on information overload.  It was horrible…and then I couldn't remember half of what she said (but I understand that no one else did either).  The next night, we were on the floor.  I was only given 1 patient, but I was frustrated and lost when it came to the computer.  I have never worked on this particular system and it is NOT user friendly.  I tried to tell my instructor, she just kept saying…"you shouldn't be overwhelmed or frustrated, you only have 1 patient".  It wasn't the patient that was the problem!!! At the end of the shift, we had a "post conference" meeting.  She asked everyone about their time on the floor.  When she got to me, she dismissed us all to go home.  I keep trying to tell myself that she probably thought she was helping me since I had a frustrating day.  It took me FOREVER to get my paperwork done!  I then retook the tutorial for the computer system.  It didn't help too much.  Oh well! (That was last week)

This week, on Monday, I got to be in the emergency department.  It was awesome.  The instructor doesn't bother you while you are in there!  I was able to do lots of things…started IV's, hooked up 12 lead EKG's and more.  It reminded me of why I am trying to become a nurse.  We were busy pretty much the whole time!  Then on Tuesday, I was assigned a patient who had a total right hip replacement.  I figured out the computer and was able to chart what was needed.  I was able to  give meds.  I thought I could even have another patient.  We are supposed to work our way up to 4 patients. 

We have our first test this week.  I am a bit nervous.  I always HATE the first test of the semester.  It stresses me out for some reason!  I think it doesn't help that we have only had two 4 hour lectures.  LOTS of material.  I just really want to pass!  I ended up dropping my UCCS online class.  With Tiffany struggling, Gpa needing my attension, Ryan struggling and getting married, Dad being stressed at work, my clinical instructor not liking me…it was just a little much.  I will take it in January after I graduate from PPCC.

So Gpa went to New Mexico.  He met a lady online--lds singles.  She is actually from Pennsylvania but her son was getting married in New Mexico on Friday.  So, he went down to meet her.  Part of me thinks…oh no, not again.  The other part says…oh yes, marry again so you aren't living here at my house.  ha,ha.  He is not supposed to come home until Tuesday or Wednesday.  I'll have to let you know how it went. 

Ryan also went to New Mexico.  He went with the Trujillos to meet their family…I guess it is her dad's family that lives there.  None of them are members.  I think Siera was a little worried about it.  Ryan wasn't too worried.  Oh, he got a job at Subway and he has another interview on Tuesday with Sam's club.  I guess Brother Walsman knows the hiring dude there at Sams and he basically told Bro. Walsman that Ryan has the job.  So, hopefully him being super busy will help him!

Well, I sure love you!  I am so proud of you!  Always remember who you are.  Mind your p's and q's.  Be strictly obedient.  Always remember that I LOVE you!

Love,

Mom