August 9, 2015

Hello Sweet Baby Boy:

How's it going?  I did write to you during sacrament, so you may hear things a couple of times. ha,ha.

Well, today, Ryan and I sang in sacrament.  Boy was I a bundle of nerves.  During practice, I did pretty well, but really struggled during the performance.  Don't get me wrong, it was good (or at least that is what everyone has told me).  Ryan screwed up on his part, but he was able to recover just fine..ha,ha.  I had to make sure I didn't laugh.

Chase Leftwich and his wife came to our ward…we had a farewell and a homecoming. Casey Nixon came home--the guy leaving was a convert who went to Liberty and was good friends with Caden Nixon.  He has been a member for f1 year and 2 months.  I think that is sort of cool!

Ryan went backpacking with Siera and her family.  I think it kicked his butt.  Actually, I would like to kick his butt!!  I am getting to the point where I am going to explode on him!  He just isn't doing anything.  He has a million and one excuses for EVERYTHING!  Like today, Dad asked him to clean up dinner.  He ended up taking a nap!  I ended up doing it.  I didn't want dad to know because he already has lost all patience with him.  I just wish he would get his act together!  I feel as though everyone else matters to him…just not his family.  We seem to always be an afterthought. Like I said, VERY frustrating!

We find out the results of gpa's last CT scan.  I am hoping that it will show that all is well with him.  His appt is tomorrow at 9:30am.  I am hoping to be able to send a quick note saying if all is alright…if not, I will let you know what the plan is.    I am praying that all will go well!!! I think I am ready for him to leave also.  He demands so much attention from me.  I feel as though I am stretched thin.  He keeps looking at girls online and trying to tell me about all these girls.  I wish he would just be alright with himself.  I doubt he will be though! He talks incessantly!  Oh well!

I'm sorry that I don't have much more to write.  Always remember who you are!  Mind your p's and q's.  Be strictly obedient.  Know that I love you beyond measure.

Love, Mom