January 31, 2016

How's my most favorite missionary???

I sure hope this finds you happy and healthy!  I hope you and your companion are still loving each other and working extra hard!

So, this was a STRESSFUL week!  I'm not going to lie!  I went to Pueblo for my NCLEX test (of course you already knew that).  I got up early Tuesday, had breakfast and headed for the test.  Big Bertha (GPS) had the address in the middle of an intersection.  I drove around for about 15 minutes before calling a friend, Kim, who had already taken a test.  It was annoying that the actual number on the building did not exist!  Oh, well.  I made it there on time, but I think that had the anxieties on an all time high.  As I sat waiting to be registered, I had to do some major self talk to calm down.  I feel like I did ok, until I actually went into the room!

I started the test and quickly realized that IT WAS HARD!!!!! Harder than what I expected.  Now, you can get anywhere between 75 - 285 questions.  Most of my friends that have passed so far had only gotten 75 questions…I think one got 85…so, you can imagine how I felt when I hit 100 questions…then 125 questions.  I had to stop myself and tell myself to breathe and slow down!  At 135, I was seriously beginning to panick again…The test stopped around 145.  When I left the building, the tears could no longer be held back. :(  I was sure that I failed.  I called gpa and told him that I was done and was pretty sure I did not pass.  He was not helpful at all.  I even grabbed dad for lunch, and that didn't ease my anxieties.  Unfortunately, dad came home that night all stressed out.  I can honestly say that I WAS A BASKET CASE!  I had to wait a full 48 hours to get my results.  How was I going to manage????  Well, the next day, I bought myself some M&M's, Fritos, Bean Dip, Lindt Truffles (extra dark chocolate)….I went to Burger King for lunch.   Once again, dad came home from work totally stressed out. 

Let me give you some other info…I didn't sleep well Monday night.  I didn't sleep well Tuesday night….it was Wednesday--still 24 hours away from my results…can you see where this is going?  I have never done well on little to no sleep!  Throw in the test anxiety and dad being stress and Tiffany having a nasty cold…and life was MISERABLE!!!  As you can well imagine, I did not sleep Wednesday night either…I ended up going into your room to sleep--Dad was snoring so loud.  I am sure that it would not have mattered…I was not sleeping.

Thursday morning,  I logged onto the website and it still said that there was NO INFORMATION!  I would refresh about every 15 minutes.  Finally, around 8 ish, it said that the results were ready…I just had to pay the extra $7.95 to get the early results.  I ran and got my credit card and entered the information.  When I was done, I was scared to death to complete the transaction….what if I failed???  How embarrassing would that be?  Would I be willing to put myself through this torture again to retake the test??  I finally completed the transaction….and… this is what I got…

After reading it, I started crying and I was unable to stop shaking.  I didn't realize how bad this waiting really was.  I took this picture and sent it to Tiffany, Ryan and Jessica.  I printed up the paper and took it to dad (who was still sleeping).  Tears were still running down my face…I think dad must have thought for a second that I didn't pass.  So  it is official..I AM AN RN!!!  I only have 7 classes left to get my bachelors.  I am taking 3 classes this semester.  If I take 2 classes this summer, I can finish up in December (if they let me take the capstone class with the last class) if not, it will be next spring.  Woo hoo!

I don't know if I want to start looking for a job yet, or just wait until I finish my BSN.  I did apply for 1 job though.  It is for a hospice place looking for a part time RN.  I think I would be able to do that.  We will see, maybe they won't want to interview me.  Even if I did interview and didn't get the job, it would be good experience.   Anyhow, I'm just going to leave it up to the Lord.

I am still recovering  from this week.  I am hoping to recover fully this week.  :)

Your cousin Joe (Lori's son) had a baby this week.  It was supposed to be a girl, but came out a boy..ha,ha  They named him Wesley William Longan.

So, he has had some problems due to her delivery and he's a month premature.  She went home, but he has to stay in the hospital.  I am sure they would appreciate any prayers on his behalf.

Here are some cute pictures…

Poor Danny caught Jessica's cold…and isn't feeling well.  :(  Isn't this the saddest face ever??

He's getting big too…Here are his 9 month old pictures

Then, Ryan went to visit this weekend….

So, I guess dad told you that Ryan has dropped all his classes since they cancelled his major.  His plan is to work full time (please pray that he can find a full-time job) and put Siera through school.  Then he will go to school while Siera works.  I guess he has decided that he wants to go to nursing school.  After going through the program, I am  worried about him doing it.  It was extremely difficult!  Diana posted this for me….

I sure hope that Ryan can figure out how to concentrate before he attempts this endeavor!  I can tell you that it was NO walk in the park!

Well son, I am so very proud of you!  I am grateful to have you as my son!  Always remember who you are!  Mind your p's and q's.  BE STRICTLY OBEDIENT!, Know that I love you beyond measure!

Love ALWAYS!

Mom